The worst is over...

So now I'm 20. Now I have a job. Now I have someone who works like a drug just by stepping in the room.

Am I happy?

Yeah :)

Am I sad?

Yeah :(

Am I scared?

Maybe a little....

But most of all, am I content?

For the first time in my life yes.
Turning 20 wasnt all so bad. I had 98% of all the people that are dear to me with me to celebrate (and support) me on that night. Honestly nothing more mattered to me than that. I took a look at all of them and thought 'If this is what has taken me 20 years to learn, if these are the people that I have sorted through to find, then it has been all worth it.'

I can really say that all of them are the most genuine, honest people this world has to offer. There is not one of them I wouldnt trust my life to.

It was a great night, with all groups mixing, a few new friendships forming, and a few old ones reconciling. Drinks were good. The only complaint really is that the Casino has just got waaaaayyyy too busy. Actually everywhere has just got waaayyyy too busy. Why?

The infamous, the largest, and probably the only nationally competing nightclub in Adelaide has been shut. I never thought it could would or should happen, but now it's devestating on the inner city nightlife.
Something to do with not paying licences and fines and not turning up to court, but thats all irrelevant now.

So this has had major impact on clubs and bars and consequently my b'day night. No matter where you go, up market cocktail lounges, few-beers-after-uni-bar, or even the under-aged swarmed taverns......the lines are F**KING ridiculous!!!
Yes the owners would be loving this but is it even worth going out anymore if to get one drink takes you 25 mins to get and then you are stuck to ur 20cm/20cm spot for the rest of the night whilst sweating from all the extremely close body heat??

Ah, its not worth the trouble anymore.

But yes, life has certainly been improving 10fold in the past month or so. I am now working for a healthcare company extremely prominent in Adelaide, Melbourne and not so much but still in Sydney.
It has got to be the best job Ive had so far and I really want to excel further with it.

So Im leaving it here for the moment, one because its too bloody humid and you feel as if you need a shower every 30 secs and 2 because theres a cooking show on tv too good to pass up!

Oh god...


Ciao!


PS. My heart goes out to a dear friend I know is not having the best of times at the moment. I love you sweety, and know that we are all here for you. If you ever need to talk, I am here....