Silence..

In my mind memories race like a preview, the face that haunts them screams in pain. A scream so deep no one can hear it, and as you try, it just takes more of you. The dull silence of ignorance is so loud, a whisper deafens my ears to your pain. As you cry in desperation, I watch sadly, Reaching out to something I can never touch. And you are part of me, as the tears fall cold, I close my eyes to slow the world down. My walls fall away, my inspiration shot, As something so strong decays infront of me. I love you, but words wont heal your pain, Im here, but presence is just a distraction. Be back in my mind as a sweet memory, I long for the time you were right. In my mind my memories race like a preview, In my eyes all i hear is screaming. All you can see is a face of contentment, But all I long for is silence....

Toilet Politics

So I said I would do it ladies....and here it is. So what are the rules when stepping into an under-accommodating, slightly off smelling toilet? Do we use a public toilet at our convenience, or try to avoid it and put ourselves at the risk of a urinary infection at all times??? Are there certain publics restrooms that are acceptable to use (ie. the staff toilet) or does that not put us at more risk of humiliation when the inevitable No.2 will just not hang on for 5.30??? So what are some of the basics that we all know are no-go's in the public toilet system? No communication with fellow cubicles at any time Avoid any bodily noises or water splashes No singing to the PA music or talking freely on mobile phones Do not make excess toilet rolling Wash hands even when the soap dispenser is empty (usual) Wipe hands if all drying agents are unavailable (nothing worse than a wet doorknob) All flatulence left for the home environment Definately no No.2's if there is a line up, i dont care how much it wants to release But what else is unsaid but always obeyed in the restroom area. When heading in and noticing that all cubicles are filled, you wait until one is free. But then when you step in that inconsiderate person before has done the most rotten bowel cleanse you have ever smelt. A. Do you stay in there anyway and hold your breath till your lips go blue. B. Do you walk out immediately, embarass prior party and wait for the next cubicle vacancy? When stepping into said restroom and not all cubicles are filled but you pass someone just as they head out, is it social decency and personal space to head to a entirely new cubicle, or is it ok to step into their momentary turf??? If all is good and you have suitably placed yourself in that corner cubicle, how many times can you roll the toilet paper before people start to realise your not in there just to release fluids, and then how much is too much before they start thinking your laxatives must have taken effect? So business is done, what do you do first? Is it zip up then flush or the other way around??? Personally i dont see how people can stand there with their pants around their ankle and still turn around butt naked to press half or full. It is always arrange first because if there's people waiting they are hanging for that flush sound and ready to pounce. So what if someone else flushes first? Can you also and then head out at the same time as them? Or is it first in, first served. I think the suitable time frame is that wen the soap is in their hand and the waters running, your safe to make your exit. And please this is a no-go with me. If you are drying your hands and you give up half way and go to grab that doorknob, step back a second and have some consideration. Alright if you have an inpatience problem, than at least wipe them on your pants, dont coat the door with your toilet habits. With No.2's there is a debate going on, on whether you place toilet paper in the bowl first to avoid splashing sounds or aim slightly off center so it rebounds. Second option? I dont think so. No one likes the trails of your business, i'd much rather just hear you. Personally i think the first option is quite socially considerate, saves embarassment and mess. But make sure this isn't taken too far and the whole roll is down there as this will just cause a blockage, and that is the most humiliating thing possible. How can you walk away from that with dignity? But when drunk do not all these rules fly out the window??? Hell if it wasnt for the side walls giving us the support, hovering would be out of the question in such circumstances. Therefor I believe that all places serving alcohol should be forced to place disabled rails in all female toilets, come on help us out a little here! But before sounding too forward I will leave it at this and hopefully will have some feedback and maybe even something i've missed..........think about it.

The worst is over...

So now I'm 20. Now I have a job. Now I have someone who works like a drug just by stepping in the room.

Am I happy?

Yeah :)

Am I sad?

Yeah :(

Am I scared?

Maybe a little....

But most of all, am I content?

For the first time in my life yes.
Turning 20 wasnt all so bad. I had 98% of all the people that are dear to me with me to celebrate (and support) me on that night. Honestly nothing more mattered to me than that. I took a look at all of them and thought 'If this is what has taken me 20 years to learn, if these are the people that I have sorted through to find, then it has been all worth it.'

I can really say that all of them are the most genuine, honest people this world has to offer. There is not one of them I wouldnt trust my life to.

It was a great night, with all groups mixing, a few new friendships forming, and a few old ones reconciling. Drinks were good. The only complaint really is that the Casino has just got waaaaayyyy too busy. Actually everywhere has just got waaayyyy too busy. Why?

The infamous, the largest, and probably the only nationally competing nightclub in Adelaide has been shut. I never thought it could would or should happen, but now it's devestating on the inner city nightlife.
Something to do with not paying licences and fines and not turning up to court, but thats all irrelevant now.

So this has had major impact on clubs and bars and consequently my b'day night. No matter where you go, up market cocktail lounges, few-beers-after-uni-bar, or even the under-aged swarmed taverns......the lines are F**KING ridiculous!!!
Yes the owners would be loving this but is it even worth going out anymore if to get one drink takes you 25 mins to get and then you are stuck to ur 20cm/20cm spot for the rest of the night whilst sweating from all the extremely close body heat??

Ah, its not worth the trouble anymore.

But yes, life has certainly been improving 10fold in the past month or so. I am now working for a healthcare company extremely prominent in Adelaide, Melbourne and not so much but still in Sydney.
It has got to be the best job Ive had so far and I really want to excel further with it.

So Im leaving it here for the moment, one because its too bloody humid and you feel as if you need a shower every 30 secs and 2 because theres a cooking show on tv too good to pass up!

Oh god...


Ciao!


PS. My heart goes out to a dear friend I know is not having the best of times at the moment. I love you sweety, and know that we are all here for you. If you ever need to talk, I am here....

A little bit of this....a little bit of that

Well its been a while, well really for a while there my life was null and void of any really interesting topic to speak of. But Im back, yet again, filling you in on the endless rant of a soon to be twenty something aussie girl.

The idea of turning 20 somewhat scares me. When I was younger 20 meant those mature girls you see catching up for a quick Greek Salad on Rundle St before running back to the office in a full skirt suit and an immaculately white pair of Nikes.
Well, definitely not me, and that doesn't look to change anytime soon. I have been taking a look at my life recently and wondered how far have I really come from wearing diapers to learning how to insert my first tampon.....ewww too gross, even for me.

Sure Im not at Uni or Tafe, I don't have a 9-5 job and I definitely don't participate in a weekly yoga class, but I like to think that my progress has been mental, emotional and somewhat physical. Now those yoga classes are starting to sound appealing...grrrr

I don't feel all that academically smart, but I do feel smart. In ways of life and how to cope with things....seeing things in a more realistic view than getting my hopes up that one day it may change...

All in all, I think I have finally accepted myself for WHO I AM.

I don't regret anything I have done in my life, not all experiences are good and I find comfort in that.

I've taken a new interest in Natural Medicines and ofcourse make-up so what better than to start doing my certificates in Community Pharmacy, its sorta like retail with a flair really. Im close to finishing and absolutely loving it, even applying to get into the industry early.

Its the people around me that have kept me going the most, and inspired me to finally shake my head and get myself on track for the rest of my life. I love these people with all my heart and still strive to care and look after them as best I can. Yes you could say that some of this contentment has come from finding another person who compliments who I am perfectly.

No we're not one of those sappy couples that never fight, and are always gazing at each other. But we do spend an enormous amount of time with each other ( this could be accounted for the fact that we both currently don't have jobs).

To find someone that has a passion similar to yours, who has the same views yet is completely the opposite to you. It feels amazing.

But yes, I think this is it for me, the child in me is fading, Im starting to take an interest in home improvement shows and trust me when I came to admit that I had to swallow my heart again.
I no longer find mindless humour in Jerry Springer or Dude Where's My Car, instead I hang out to watch Dr Phil and Oprah to learn more about the human mind. God please don't let Days of Our Lives be next!

so I don't really know if Im having one of those life changing experiences....I don't know whether just not being able to call myself a teen is scaring the hell out of me....or maybe Im just coming to that stage in my life where I've grown too big for my gum boots and its time to buy my first pair of immaculately white nikes.

Whats for sure is Im loving the new me, Im loving the way I've started thinking and Im loving that at 2am Im not obsessing over which Macca's Value Meal to purchase but whether a red wine or a Caipiroska is my choice of drink before heading home.

So I hope this change is for good, because I feel like a better person now, and my past hang ups hold no worry with me anymore....I was a kid.
don't worry, you will still be getting the same light hearted comedy reading you have come to expect of MIC.

Love you all!

It's all just a little too scarey...

The london underground bombing attacks.

Despite the fact that I was meant to be living in London at the present time, this just cuts a little too close to home. Yes everyone I know has said something, or reported on something about this terrible act, but Im not going to go into the politics side of it all. It seems everyone is jumping on the band wagon to express their complete disgust at the people who did this, and fair enough so. These men obviously have a blind faith in an extremist pathetic ideal. Line them all up against a wall infront of a firing squad is an all too common comment I have been hearing lately.
Not to point out but someone being done for 4kgs of drugs smuggling was up for the same sentence, the scale here seems to be scewed.

Now yes it's all perfectly natural to act out our hatred on the people that caused it. But at the same time, there will always be people like this, there always have been. It's human nature to conflict, and this is that act in its extreme. Please if im soundng insensitive, I mean not to be, I wish there werent people like this alive as much as anyone else, but just being angry at them and plotting retaliations isnt going to get us anywhere. Well apart from in more fights.
What 'some' people dont realise is they did this in a form of retaliation against us. Against the wrongs we are doing in their countries, and 'some' of the people in the world are doing just that.

They are as pissed off with us, as we are with them. The difference? Why do they look like the worse group of people as compared to say the Amercian defence force?
Because they in no way state their high regard for human life, they show no remorse in the acts that they devise against our people, basically their being honest of their own appauling morality.
Where as the Americans and whoever has joined them in their fight over there seem to claim that their respect for human life is of highest importance.

Bullshit.

We do to them what they are now doing to us. So not only must we be angry at them, why not turn around and look at your own leaders and an answer. Their all just a bunch of big boys, with big toys.

Fuck I've gone into the politics. God damn it!

What I have focused more on from this incident is....

This can happen to anyone of us. With the blink of an eye your entire life could be over. No saying goodbye, no last daring stunt of bravery, no last look at the ones you love the most. You will never be around again, never catching that bus, never being called for relationship advice or to go out on the weekend. This is what scares me the most. People just going about their daily lives, to not have those daily lives anymore. In a way makes you appreciate just being alive so much more.

This doesnt even just have to relate to terrorist attacks. Plane crashes, car accidents, freak branch falling on you in the middle of a golf course (still cant believe the irony). Just like that it's over. When I really think about it, it scares me more than any terrorist group, politician etc. I pray to god it never happens to anyone around me that I love dearly.

Think about it.


My heart goes out to all victims and their families involved in this horrible incident and my prayers and concern are with all my friends living and visiting London at this time.

Now which size were you after???

Yes! MIC has moved on. She no longer works for the regime that was the 'supermarket' and now is starting her new job in a nationally recognised clothing store :P

Yes Im getting paid slightly less but this doesnt worry me as I will be loving every minute of my job. Working with clothes all day, helping customers, hot guys walking in for that necessary pink polo shirt.....i dont agree with it but damn do polo's look fine on guys ;)

I have my first shift on Thurs and the most exciting, I get to go shopping tomorrow for outfits to wear, as they insist I wear their clothing :D

Unfortunately tho, MIC has been taken down by the all to familiar tonsilitis :( Well it's been a pretty bad run of it actually, I cant talk, cant turn my neck and cant swallow anything larger than a capsule.

Got the doc around the other night and he prescribed me 500mg of pennicilin, which I knew was not enough as I get it severly so i need to be on at least 1000mg. So i proceeded to get worse to the point where at training for my new job this morning, I couldnt answer any questions or move faster than a grandma in a walking frame. Not a good start. But nice to see the new boss was already giving me shit about it.

'Speak up MIC, can't hear you.'

Ha Ha Ha.

So yes went back to the docs today and he fears it may be glandula fever. He wanted to give me a blood test, but me being the 5yr old scaredy cat refused and instead he swabbed half way down my throat and gave me this pink liquid i have to take. Is he trying to tell me something???

So yeh Im feeling a bit better but if I dont recover on these drugs then I have Glandula and yeh pretty much fucked. He even said something about having to take steriods for a short period in order to get the swelling down!!!!!!!

Yeh i could just picture coming home, scratching my crotch, feeling my stubble, looking at my parents and saying in a monotone voice.....

'How you goin mate!'

Will work for above award wages...

Readers that work with me will be able to verify this. Friends of MIC would have on numerous occasions heard me whine about this, and as for the rest of my enthusiastic readers, you have probably either heard me bitch about it on here or your just about to get a lesson in my working life.

As most of you know, I work at a 'supermarket', that term I use lightly. I have many close friends there which really are more like family to me now as we have all been there too long.
I also have a notoriously bad run with bad managers. WhatsHerName being the last and what was thought worst of all managers.

But no.

Sadly.

It gets worse than a ugly, slow mole. Excuse the harshness but its true.



We have now had the undesired pleasure of being ruled by an evil force from a world with no conscience. I will call it Fifi. It is a 50 something, northern suburbs, never had a friend as a teenager, trying to relive my youth, must have had Morgan Freeman cut my hair.... cow. Hahahaha oh that was too good....

It has waltzed its bogan ass into our store, and from the moment it opened that mouth all i could smell was the sweet intoxicating aroma of bullshit. It has lied to its workers to apparently 'strategically' forward itself further up the corporate Fab 5's ass and done it with not even so much as a second thought. It has demoted, cease to give hours or plainly make their shift a living hell in order to what I have now been informed as 'weening out' the old staff.

Is it because we're bad workers?

No.

Is it because we don't have a clue what we're doing or how the store runs successfully?

No.

Is it because we're better looking?

Not even debatable.

Or is it simply threatened by the fact that we run fine on our own and really only have it there to organise some rostering and to take the heat when shit fucks up???

Oh I get chills down the spine at the thought.


It really has no idea how to run a business, only to ensure at the end of the day its behind gets in its sad excuse of a car knowing that tomorrow it will come back to the same job.

Ween us old school team out? Oh but with pleasure your highness. For a business that is turning to shit with the single swift of one bad workers hand, id rather get out now with some dignity and work up the ranks somewhere else. Just so I can come back in a few years time, make you put through 3 trolleys worth of the smallest shit i could find in the store, then ask you to sort out into cold goods, meats, cleaning products and well.....fuck it.....sort out all things with sharp corners. You know why IT? Because thats the way it's worked out. Sounds better coming out of my mouth I think.
And after this I will whip out my GOLD credit card to pay for such goods, after no doubtably finding that you have scanned wrong items mroe than once and make you do the refund.
I will walk out the store to my already better but soon to be another whole class car to place my shopping away and drive away.

And what will you be doing??? Oh oh whats that????

Still working at a small non-profitable store, getting called into the managers office every week to be told off and left crying...... Oh, thats a shame. Shouldn't have burnt your bridges and taken the opportunity to prosper when it was there.

Oh that was a harsh piece wasnt it????? Not one to sound bitchy but....

It deserves it.

My love and respect to everyone else at that store, I adore all of you.

ciao ciao, going to play with kitty :P


PS. IT, look up the word customer service, I think you'll be quite shocked.