A salute...

I smile as i see you,
You reassure me.
The small talk, the intentions,
Hit as you walked in the room.

For so long I've wanted this,
I feel u did too.
How can i know you,
Ur not a part of my world.

We carry on, desperately alone,
Yearning to touch and hold.
Finally the rush comes,
You are the one to kill me.

It grew and grew, unexpected in nature,
To the point where i cant breathe.
Without seeing your face,
And aching inside to be touched.

Now it is dying, the petals falling,
My soul has been ripped.
I yearn for you still,
But reality has hit me.

I talk to u and turn away,
Walking with my back to the sun.
U were the one, who did kill me,
But where im gone, you are now.

I choose SINGLE...

After days of weighing up what i wanted or who i wanted i have made my decision. Not only have the offers reached the level 10 mark, they are coming with more force and kindness.
I have recently made the decision with my life to journey overseas and teach english, this ofcourse will be taking place in the next few months and Australia could be saying goodbye to MIC as soon as april!!! I admit it is a little scarey that it will finally be over, and that i will be out there doing what i always wanted (travelling) all on my lonesome in places I could only ever see in pictures. But at the same time i have never been so excited!
So this is why i am opting to stay single, as getting into something would not only be unfair to the other party, it may also sway my desire to move overseas. I know it probably sounds bad but i dont want to hold out from what i want to do because i dont want to leave a guy. At this age the chances of me finding the man i want to spend the rest of my life with in the next 4 months is highly unlikely, so i see no benefit in getting into something now. Id rather go out there, have a bit of fun for myself, maybe have a few flings but nothing exclusive, get some sexual satisfaction on this side for once! haha

Making this decision has actually taken a weight off, i dont have to worry about what im doing or who i may be hurting in the process.... China, Japan, Indonesia here i come!!!!

Bumper Sticker: Attention Men, She is Single!!!

There has always been the common myth that when you are single, all offers for casual sex,seeing each other, deep meaningful relatioship or even re-enactment of Paris' porn video seem to suddenly vanish. Then when you settle for the one person that has showed interest in the past 6 months you tell yourself this is the person i've been waiting for, it was meant to be. Sadly, no huni. Thats your desperation from being lonely for so long talking.
Then to fuck with your head even more what happens? It seems all these hidden offers seem to come rushing back right? Is this some kind of sick joke a higher power is playing on us? Or is it simply these days going for the unattainable is the preferred option as that leaves us free of any obligation?
So now i ask the question, what the hell has happened to me in the past 2-3 weeks??? It seems my life has played role reversle. It seems during my relationship with BustAMove all offers were null and void, now that im wearing the all too familiar single badge again, it has been offer after offer, from parties that i would never have even considered!
Not that im necessarily complaining as this is probably the way i would prefer it, but now im in the dilemma of what avenue do i go down??? This week is gonna be testing i can feel it....